I wish you all a happy holiday season including lots of chocolate and cinnamon smelling candles,, and peaceful moments. These paste few months have been a time of transition for me.
Don’t you hate the word transition? It means something is changing and when something is changing it is usually…unusually painful. In the spring when I see the little plants breaking through the soil, in the pansies I plant every year, I know its going to be hard for these little plants to make it. Transition is like that!
So I have been gone for a couple of months. I am still going to school and trying to keep on going towards my degree. And that’s going OK but I am also trying to figure out how I am going to make a living going forward! Wow this has been a tough one. I have been out almost 18 months with this cancer and cancer recovery; what does a person say to a prospective employer? I can tell you, from tough experience what not to say! No body wants to hear it.
I am moving forward. I don’t want help staying disabled I want help finding employment and figuring out how to do it. I just want to be ‘normal’. Oh wow, there is a word isn’t it. What is my new normal?
November 13th was my one year anniversary of my last surgery. Of course, that doesn’t mean its over. Lots of people say ‘well its over now’. Hmmm anyone that has had cancer knows its never over. January I have to go in for a complete work up. Its called ‘hunting for cancer’., a new game you play every year for the rest of your life. Of course one is glad to be able to play the game. its just good to be in the game.
Trying to keep things calm and quiet this year. Not to much hub bub around Christmas. The weather has been extremely cold lately and that is not to great either. I can’t wait to get the electric bill. Merry Christmas electric company, happy being warm to me. I guess that’s all enough though. isn’t it? Just being warm, have a place to sleep and food in the refrigerator?